Conflict of interest...

I think there are moments of brilliance in every man's life...Not phases..moments.. Why place such an emphasis you ask...? Well,firstly, ppl believe that they go through good and bad phases..and think that the ideas that occur during the good phases are brilliant...while the others are...well,average...

Let's consider a typical scenario... A boy just like u and me,has severe doubts about his real(not current) love interest. I mean,he knows the ones that stand out from the rest,it's just that he cannot pick one from this extended list!! yeah...like most "my-friends-dream" stories..you can guess who this boy is...!!

Lemme get to the point... everyday,he gets to look at the ppl that mean most to him...the ones of which one could make his life pure,at the beginning, and pure hell later on...! He keeps looking for signs...God's signs,friends signs,love signs,traffic,weather...and so on... But after a certain point of time,he feels dejected...when he doesn't receive any signs...

He looks deep into the eyes of the ones he holds dear...and each of them give him a sign week after week.. Some together in the same week, while not at all during some other times..He keeps thinking..."am i doing this right?", "is it right to love more than one?", "i mean,i haven't yet told her (read: them)..."...These are the average moments that I mentioned about earlier..

Now,let's get to the brilliant ones...These u don't have to analyse...They're in your face... The moments where everything around this gal and you seems to slow down (like an 80's slow motion typical Bollywood song), moments where you suddenly develop a tunnel vision (ppl,places,things..all these don't matter at this instant), moments where your desire to tell her abt your love exceeds your love for her itself... And this,of course happens with multiple gals... Why?? Beats me....!!

I've often wondered how ppl actually think of love as something that can be started from a one-sided thingy and then plan to turn it into a two-way love... In reality,persistence for pursuit of love is arguably a foolish thing. You will regret it years down the line... Why,oh why didn't I look for someone else?? why did I waste my time trying to 'woo' this gal when she was least interested in me? Why am i like this? How is it that ppl around me that are equally dumb/smart(as u may state it) have a gal in their arms and I don't?

These questions never seem to have a 4 point answer...I wish there was this blog somewhere that God secretly maintained that contained tips for ppl who have questions like this... but I simply love the human tendency to blab even such a secretive blog to others..Out of pity, for appraisal, or God-alone-knows what other reasons...

Well,as I end this I still think of what could be the answer that we seek? Why do we not know what we want? And once we do,why do we not know how to get it? And if we do get it, are we really happy? And if we are happy,who is there beside you to share it with? (Last question,I promise...) And if we do find someone to share this 'moment' with,will it last?

To be or not to be single...That is the question I think Shakespeare would be turning in his grave over...

A thought to chew on...

hmm....my first blog on my thoughts...This one's goin to be fun...

Now what is the first name that springs to your mind when I say.."Friendship!"?? so you have a name.. Now come to think of it,is this a person you've met recently or have had a long term friendship with? If I'm guessing right,it's been long term (long being a relative idea!!)

Have you ever wondered about the possibilities when this friend of yours might turn out to do something against you....NO! I'm not talking about the minor squabbles, fights that you may have had over something trivial (as I'd put it 'Worldly')..NO.. This is about the fights that have emerged from conflicts in your principles. I do not know how many reading this have ever had the good fortune of having a "Principle fight" with your friends...but for those that have,I've got just one thing to say.... "You're damn lucky!!".


No..I'm not out of my mind... It is such fights that have made people stronger...and admit it or not,it's what's made you stronger over the years too. Like controlled friction causes parts of a machine to harden over time,like persistent hunger,poverty hardens the true nature of men....... like constant failures drive the Indian cricket team to go all out to win(!!!).. The fights that you tend to whisk away as a mere fall-out will do you more good than harm, but that comes from the right conditioning.

A mind accustomed to giving in to pressure cannot make much progress up the learning graphs from his fights. It becomes so much of a routine to fail that you'd rather have people leave you down and alone than support you.

Then what kind of a person learns from a fight? A person that understands the value of the friends he intends to keep close for long... A person who realises that the best moments in life do not come from the trips that you've been to, the eateries that you may have frequented or the classes that you may have bunked with friends....
Nope....the best moments in life are when you're down and out, and there's no one to come to your help. As you lie on a virtual floor of ice somewhere,freezing your ass off...you will see a shimmer of light..You can call this whatever you want....Hope, Faith, Trust, Love and any more of these outdated vitruvian values. This light will help you on your feet, will help you warm that frozen ass and teach you to laugh it off....As the typical nature of humans goes,you will want to name it with a relation(as we do to all feelings that are going just fine by themselves).. You start to wonder-"is this a friend?", "Do I know this?...I mean I've felt this before...." and so on...


It takes a fair deal of introspection to realise that this light was from within....!! It was all you... There is this quote I read somewhere that rings in my head after a fight... "Self alone is the best friend of self"...but I guess that was for people like me....For others, here's a thought that I'd like to leave you with......

"A friend helps you to move, a real friend helps you to move a body"....

Think about it!